In this day we like to think of our christian experience in a very personal way. We are always tempted to focus on ourselves. A lot of people teach that when the Psalmist is petitioning God to examine , search, himself that he is asking God to show him his weakness and sin so that he can confess. The christian is very dependent upon the amount of knowledge that he has about God. The hardest application to learn is how we interpret what God is saying to us from the meditation of scripture and what it means to us in how we view ourselves. In this area of growth we must acknowledge that what we do not know about God will color our understanding of ourselves and what we think God is saying to us in this personal way. This is why ignorance is not bliss.

Ive practiced memorization and mediation for 40 years. I decided as I was building one scripture upon another, that I would not judge myself or a situation until I had been satisfied that my first reaction would be challenged and I had come to peace about the way to judge a matter. There were some decisions that took a short time to figure out but there were other judgements that took me years to get satisfaction. There are some things that we will never understand. Its very important to understand these distinctions. Because we are trying to avoid going down side roads...or what the psalms describe as stumbling in a hole.

We must understand that this matter of change in the christian life involves applications of truth that we do not understand and trusting in the truth as if we are coasting along in an airplane and without knowing when the engines came back on to keep us from crashing we were able to be saved from danger.This is the way truth is applied. You build up the knowledge of God and then you are made different without seeing the clear change. This is what the Psalmist means by God searching us.
God created all things by His spoken word. Every event in our lives has an explanation of God that rises up to the highest beauty, the perfect symmetry, and the greatest unity. This change from one moment to another is too much for us to understand. Learned truth is kind of like storing up grain. You build one truth upon another. The more you learn the closer and more profound is the understanding in coming to experience this perfect explanation of God in the moment.

This is why Ive been saying that Gods creative acts have reorder this world. He has upheld His laws, covenant, decrees and promises. When we are saved we enter into a new kingdom that has already been established. We naturally think that unless God shows us ourselves that we cannot change. But God works in us by bringing us to the reality of the circumstances of His kingdom so that as we begin to live in that kingdom we are changed. In other words the whole reality that we need to become is already present. But because of our lack of knowledge and understanding we are more guilty of interpreting things and experiencing things that are not really from God.