8614	Forums / Theology Forum / Contempative Meditation	on: August 22, 2006, 08:17:52 PM
Let me explain a little more about the psalms and to attest to the power of the written word and the power of the pleading. There was a very ugly series of thoughts that were running through my mind. These were worse than any of the sin that i did today, and they were the spring board for my inordinate anger which was toward God and was mixed with the thoughts of why pray? it does no good, so then in this state of mind the flesh was crying out for control. This was a real struggle and was worse than any sin or lust i did today! It attacked my fervency and made me complacent. It caused me to be in a resignation mode of thinking. The hope of the Spirit was replaced by anger. It was because of the circumstances and it was trying to set into my disposition. The anger was attacking my spiritual wholeness. When i started to meditate in a few psalms i could feel the word dissecting what my spirit had accepted and what the Holy Spirit was saying to me. I went from a state of a lack of awareness as to what was in my heart to a state of deep awareness as to the disposition of my heart. These psalms changed my view of God and my circumstances and it was done in that it penetrated the surface of my heart and pierced the deeps of my heart. When i was done i was in a state of peace and knew that it was a matter of time before God would bring the ultimate assurance of what communication had been to my heart. It was a heavenly , eternal metamorphosis.