9621  Forums / Theology Forum / Spiritual Depression on: February 16, 2006, 07:33:11 PM What we see with our eyes has a great effect upon what we struggle with in fear. Here is a situation and it is mounting with more difficulty as time goes on. The situation has great effect upon our trust in God as it relates to His abilities, and it causes us much anxiety. There are things that we do to increase this anxiety. We fix our gaze upon the problem in that anxious state and then we begin to increase its power over us. Being in an anxious state is what we must overcome. First of all it our position is that  in anxiety we stand in between the insurmountable problem and the absolute trustworthiness of God. We are captivated in focusing and talking about these insurmountable problems. The reason we focus on the difficulty is because our problem with sin and then there is the problem with how we view ourselves in light of Gods absolute trustworthiness. Behind us is the reminder of Gods deliveries, that is all the past instances where we have been delivered by God. Now this is the art of motivation in struggling with fear and anxiety. Here there are these reminders. What we have as believers is the absolute trust of God and we have the absolute faithfulness of God. He is a God who knows the details of these anxious situations. The scripture declares that we have a refuge. Yet here we are in the situation enamored with the trouble that is staring us in the eye. We are sorta under its spell. There are declarations in scripture and then there is an intimate knowledge of these promises that must be ingested. This process of ingesting is a learned process.It is a two headed process. One is its illumination into the mind, and the sweetness of its discovery. Two is its illuminated application in the disposition we are in at the present existence in our world. It is applied by illumination. Existing in a disposition of anxiety has forces that are beyond our ability to overcome in that illumination process of ingesting the word. This is the reality so that  we are motivated to apply the illumination in a disposition of pain. Why would it be a trial if the insurmountable difficulties were visible to us without the inward struggle. If it did not effect us inside it would not be a trial. The anxious spells strength drives us away from that sweetness of the illumination to focus only on the source of the illumination. Its as if we are enamored with the words ability to enliven us. Then we are under the spell of the trial and that enamored illuminated spell is broken and we in our desperation are driven from the concept of the illuminations power over us to focus on the word\" I am the God of refuge.\" In the desperation of the spell we desperately cast ourselves upon the sure word and not the ability of the word to illuminate us. There is this transference of anxious spell in that process of meditation on these abilities in God. Yet there is a war of holding on to that spell of anxiety. Its as if it is being pried from us and yet going through the process of hoping in His word creates its own illumination. That new illumination is not understood in our most desperate times. Its only after we have overcome that we understand its ability to go beyond the surface of our former trust and in that pain- word process it becomes sweeter than pre- pain illumination.