8062	Forums / Theology Forum / Opening Up	on: December 24, 2006, 05:26:58 PM
Quote Thanks guys. I'm at a point in life where survival is the name of the game. Each person deals with things differently and what gets under one persons skin might seem trivial to another. I'm in a quandary about something akin to "when in Rome do as the romans do". Do I lower my standards/ethics to preserve my health so stress and depression might not abound or do I continue as is and suffer the consequences? I also wonder why I worry about things and get bothered. I thought life would get less burdensome as I grew older. Surprise. I don't know if the thinking is still the same but when it comes to type A and type B personalities I'm looking at being the A kind. Causes conflict which I can swallow but as time has gone on I'm worried about how it's effecting my health in the long run. At this rate living for eternity doesn't look so good. It sounds like you are starting to grieve because of the direction you have been going. I sense that there is some guilt there. Now there are some views in your mind of the future that are extremely scary and you are perplexed about what to do. You seem to be caught in between guilt and fear. We all have some of the grieving to do because we carve out periods in our lives were we allow our thought life to wander off of trusting in Christ. Then we begin to chase our imaginations because instead of thinking Gods thoughts after Him we chase some thing or person. So now there is so much grief there that the depression clouds our view of ourselves under grace. I usually struggle each day with either trusting Christ or trusting myself. When i start to trust myself , i get very busy. But this is a war , and we can start to fight it at any point in our lives. We must begin to ask God to lead us in the rite path. To lead us in a path He wants us to go. When we begin to plead with Him then grace will begin to fill our minds so that we will begin to overcome the  worry about what happens in the future and we will begin to make the bad memories of our youth reasons for glorying in the cross of Christ and rejoicing in His love. The more we meditate on the word the more we will begin to think Gods thoughts after Him, and the landing will be soft in grace as we begin to repent the direction we have taken to grow luke warm in our love for Him.